Doubt
Hello Everyone,
I know that it has been awhile since I posted on this blog and I would truly like to apologize for my absence. So many things have occurred in my life that has kept me from posting on blog, changes in my life, mood and settings being a few. I don't know how many people are still reading my blog, but I promise from now on that I will try to post on a more consistent online. There may be times that I might go, days, weeks even months without posting anything, but I promise that I will never go this long without post anything. You have my word on this.
Now that I have got that out of the way, I want to talk about something that has plagued me for so many years, as I am sure it has plagued many other people, and this thing that I am talking about is Doubt. I would like to start with the meaning of the word. Dictionary.com defines doubt as a feeling of uncertainty about the truth, reality, or nature of something. Everyday I would question so many things about myself, things that I have no control over. "Am I living life without purpose?" "Why am I here?" "Am I a failure in life?" "Am I continuing to make my parents proud of me?" "Do I live without purpose?" Doubt have kept me from pursing my passions, friendship and even relationships. I always wonder if I am good enough or worthy enough. I don't know when these thoughts of doubt occurred, I just know that it is something that I have dealt and is still dealing with.
I have learned that there are things that just are out of my control, and I should just roll with the punches. I know that I will make a lot of mistakes in my life, but that is a part of life and growing up. That no one is perfect and everyone is flawed but no matter what happens, we matter to people and ourselves. We shouldn't let doubt consume our lives, because if we do, we end up losing ourselves. There are times that I almost lost myself, that I almost gave up and decide to end it all. But what stop me from doing the unthinkable, or in some cases, the unforgivable, are my parents. My parents would not want me doubt myself or give up on myself. So I decided to make positive changes in my life, starting with talking about the things that bother or trouble me. I also started to recite the Serenity prayer almost everyday or when I start to doubt myself and it helps. I still doubt myself, but it is not as much. I learn to take things one day at a time, and also not to stress over the little things in life. I also realize that I am perfectly imperfect, that my imperfections are the things that make me perfect to my friends and family. I also realize that I am more than enough, and I should make time for myself and pursue my dreams. I know that there are people in my corner that are proud of me and no matter what, will always be there for me.
In conclusion, don't let doubt consume your everyday life. There will be times that you will make mistakes and there will be times where you will question yourselves. I just want you to know that you are worthy, and you are perfect just the way you are, and you shouldn't change anything about yourself. Pursue dreams. Do things that not only will make you happy but make you proud about everything in your life. There are people in you life that cares about you and even though I don't know you and you don't know me, I care about you and I am rooting for you every step of the way. I will like to leave you a quote from one of my favorite authors, Bram Stoker: “We learn from failure, not from success!”
I will like to thank you for reading my blog. If you will like to contact me. You can follow me on twitter and instagram: @geeky_gamer25 or you can email me. Again, thank you for reading my blog and I will you next time. Take care.
I know that it has been awhile since I posted on this blog and I would truly like to apologize for my absence. So many things have occurred in my life that has kept me from posting on blog, changes in my life, mood and settings being a few. I don't know how many people are still reading my blog, but I promise from now on that I will try to post on a more consistent online. There may be times that I might go, days, weeks even months without posting anything, but I promise that I will never go this long without post anything. You have my word on this.
Now that I have got that out of the way, I want to talk about something that has plagued me for so many years, as I am sure it has plagued many other people, and this thing that I am talking about is Doubt. I would like to start with the meaning of the word. Dictionary.com defines doubt as a feeling of uncertainty about the truth, reality, or nature of something. Everyday I would question so many things about myself, things that I have no control over. "Am I living life without purpose?" "Why am I here?" "Am I a failure in life?" "Am I continuing to make my parents proud of me?" "Do I live without purpose?" Doubt have kept me from pursing my passions, friendship and even relationships. I always wonder if I am good enough or worthy enough. I don't know when these thoughts of doubt occurred, I just know that it is something that I have dealt and is still dealing with.
I have learned that there are things that just are out of my control, and I should just roll with the punches. I know that I will make a lot of mistakes in my life, but that is a part of life and growing up. That no one is perfect and everyone is flawed but no matter what happens, we matter to people and ourselves. We shouldn't let doubt consume our lives, because if we do, we end up losing ourselves. There are times that I almost lost myself, that I almost gave up and decide to end it all. But what stop me from doing the unthinkable, or in some cases, the unforgivable, are my parents. My parents would not want me doubt myself or give up on myself. So I decided to make positive changes in my life, starting with talking about the things that bother or trouble me. I also started to recite the Serenity prayer almost everyday or when I start to doubt myself and it helps. I still doubt myself, but it is not as much. I learn to take things one day at a time, and also not to stress over the little things in life. I also realize that I am perfectly imperfect, that my imperfections are the things that make me perfect to my friends and family. I also realize that I am more than enough, and I should make time for myself and pursue my dreams. I know that there are people in my corner that are proud of me and no matter what, will always be there for me.
In conclusion, don't let doubt consume your everyday life. There will be times that you will make mistakes and there will be times where you will question yourselves. I just want you to know that you are worthy, and you are perfect just the way you are, and you shouldn't change anything about yourself. Pursue dreams. Do things that not only will make you happy but make you proud about everything in your life. There are people in you life that cares about you and even though I don't know you and you don't know me, I care about you and I am rooting for you every step of the way. I will like to leave you a quote from one of my favorite authors, Bram Stoker: “We learn from failure, not from success!”
I will like to thank you for reading my blog. If you will like to contact me. You can follow me on twitter and instagram: @geeky_gamer25 or you can email me. Again, thank you for reading my blog and I will you next time. Take care.
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